수요일, 4월 30, 2008
I may be extremely apologetic to have to associate the word 'disgusted' with a human being because i find that quite derogatory but then again, i am hardly far from the truth when i use the word for her.
My second observation of the chinese class served to fill me with disgust more than anything else.
I swear that any of the new teachers can teach SOOO much better than her.
And the biggest irony? She freaking only has 3 students, apparently graduated with phD in education in Canada and yet her style of teaching betrays whatever supposed 'experience' that she ought to have been equipped with. Duh~
I may appear to some that i am purely kicking up a fuss over nothing. But i dun like her attitude and thats just it. Period.
1) She ends exactly on the dot everytime even though she starts late, gathers all her things in a flash and just gets up and leaves the class abruptly after leaving her last line: "Oh, the rest you can ask her *points to me*, she will be your new teacher."
Will you die if you just extend the lesson by 5 minutes more and at least round up the session in a more decent manner?
2) During class, she just throws the work to the student and lets them attempt everything by themselves. While she reads her book. I find the latter activity of utmost importance to be mentioned.
Even i found the ensuing silence deafening. Hello~ Do you only know extremes? Either spoonfeeding or leaving them to fend for themselves? Arent you at least supposed to drop some hints and help them along especially since you have more than enough time on your hand?
3) She uses more complex words and expressions to explain the original vocabulary. That even i caught no ball sometimes.
Bravo.
4) She reads the whole passage to the student in chinese, barely does any translation, goes on to answer the questions in an extremely foolproof method. "So, the answer is this, RIGHT?" Of cos, the student is left with no choice but to nod since she didnt even understand what the hell was being said in the first place.
One of my personal pet peeves. I hate it when people try to sway your mind by using the word, RIGHT at the end of sentences. Open ended questions do leave much more to the imagination, by the way.
5) She uses the computer meant for the students to do diagnostic tests every lesson to download movies and songs for herself. And i always thought it was classroom material.
Diao.
6) Its bad enough she uses the computer for her own uses (i can assure you none of the teachers do that at all) and she still has to sing along to the songs when other teachers are having class.
You win big time man.
7) At the end of today's lesson, i went to ask her where she photocopied this set of notes so that i can continue with them next week. At first she just anyhow mumbled a reply saying that its in ONE of the books. Later the principal came in, and she promptly switched to english and without even glancing up at me, just threw another enigmatic one liner at me again. "Its all in my mind, ok?"
OK WHAT?
That is damn rude can.
What the.
I certainly didnt know your mind can be photocopied into notes. Woah~ Such an eyeopener.
I was super pissed when she said that i left the room without even saying goodbye.
You wun know how glad i am that today is her last day.
I am extremely bewildered how come none of the students complained about her. Just because the principal and eunjun know nothing about chinese means she can do whatever is to her fancy?
No wonder the small ger yesterday was so elated when eunjun told her that i was going to be her new teacher.
I forgot to comment that her english is far from what i would have expected from someone who lived in canada for a few years.
And i also left out the part she mentioned to me, albeit casually, "I think i speak english quite beautifully, so the principal should know my standards and how come he doesnt let me convert to being an english teacher instead?"
Explainations are unnecessary at this point. Everything speaks for itself.
I wasnt born to feel something against people from some countries but somehow, the same people just never fail to invoke and fuel the prejudice streak in me. I seriously consider my tolerance threshold as unusually high compared to most people but yet there still exists people who force me to reach the peak of my threshold.
Maybe because of her i was extremely sensitive over the malay teacher's comment to another teacher today. But honestly speaking, i dun wish to entertain bo liao stuff like rumours between me and eunjun. So i hope such stuff wun cross the mind of anyone and i definitely dun wish to end up as the 'school's pet' as opposed to the 'teacher's pet'. Period.
Ok my mind is a whirlwind now.
Kindly allow me to organise my thoughts in a coherent fashion first.
Anyway, got hy to send in her application to help out at my school and she was finally called down for an interview yesterday. Dun really know the outcome yet but i do hope to hear a favourable reply soon. Aish should have gotten eunjun to help me kaypoh abit. But unfortunately he is going to bintan today so me and hy will have to be kept in suspense til probably, saturday?
Think it will be more fun to have a friend around..
Oh and i finally get to pick my own room! Ok this is like way overdue but at least now i shall have a place to call home. Lol. Eunjun said i could choose any room that i want (cos there is an abundance of rooms at paya lebar) so yeah i have to scrutinise each room closely first. Ha. Actually i feel abit bad cos i always seem to be chatting with him i.e Slacking. Oops~ In fact, yesterday i was happily drinking tea while sitting at the counter and crapping with him when the wonjangnim stepped in. =p Ok i need to be less friendly from now on.. LOL. But i was quite grateful to him cos he went to ask for an off day for me on friday. Originally i was supposed to come and they will pay me one day's wages cos not enough teachers that day. Of cos, i rather have time off if its possible..
Another thing was that i went to observe chinese class yesterday since i will be taking over from next week onwards and i only have one thing to say.
I was sorely disappointed.
The way she went through the lessons was just [-___________-]".
Have you ever seen a teacher reading the whole passage without doing any translation, then go on to answer the comprehension questions herself and finally ended with the line 'Copy what i have written and then erase my words.'??
I dun mean to sound arrogant and be overly critical of her even though i might be slightly biased against non-locals at times but isnt that slightly overboard?
I mean i do have flaws in my own teaching skills but at least i do take pride in the fact that students do learn during my lesson instead of being spoonfed all the way. Oh well, sorry but i guess i wun have much trouble taking over her job then.
Reckon i really kinda like interacting with korean kids alot. The small ger who was in the chinese class was making me smile when i saw the way she stuck to eunjun. Like glue! Lol. And i always feel this surge of satisfaction whenever i can tell that the kid likes me. Haha i sound abit narcisstic. ^^
Yeah payday today and holiday tomorrow~
Dreamt of kangta and jaejin yesterday..
일요일, 4월 27, 2008
Listening to: SS501 live on KBS2 라디오
Met up with yunling, her fren hyun jin, angel, gloryn, sini and some other people that i din know (i still dun lol) today for my second round of iceskating! ^^
Ha i had already mentioned that it is an extremely addictive activity.
Everyone should really give it a try.
(hyunjoong, youngsaeng, jungmin, hyungjoon and kyujong's voices are distracting me in the background -__-)
Eh where was i? Lol. Yup in conclusion, just give it a shot. Its wuunderful~~ Haha.
And i also realised that its a really convenient and effective way to hold someone's hand without being mistaken for a perv. Rofl. So guys should really all know how to iceskate. YEah.
Ok i give up trying to blog cos its super hard to try and understand korean and blog at the same time. Frankly i am usually very proud of my multi tasking skills but this is a tad too taxing..ha.
Feel drained again..
아무것도 하고 싶지 않아~
금요일, 4월 25, 2008
Heh actually wanted to go and sleep soon but i just had to get this off my chest cos its really amusing. ^^
I realised kyochan (the older one) loves to give me food and kyuhyun (the younger one) loves to snatch my food!! LOL~ kyuhyun will just like take my glass of water and drink from it as if it was the most normal thing on earth to do..-___-
Ehh even i hardly share drinks with my guy friends. ROfl. Ha ok he's just a small boi.
Anyway just now had 떡볶이 and 김밥 courtesy of kyochan's 할머니 when i was having tuition and its really nice..aww i think i can just eat these two everyday without getting sick of them. In fact, everytime i see eunjun the topic of 떡볶이 would be brought up somehow. Heh.
Oh and yeah kyochan is back to his usual chirpy self. *beams*
I really honestly truly frankly heart this boi k. Ha. Hes so freaking adorable in terms of character (ok, and looks but thats not the main point) that i envy his mum sometimes. Keke.
Alright one last thing on my mind: Can i say I miss dbsk like mad? Cos i really do.
Was watching their promotion stuff for [beautiful you] and i yearn to hear them speak in korean again instead of japanese that makes them seem so foreign..I just want min, chun n su to be calling jaejoong hyung again and not just jaejoong~~ ㅠㅠ
Wanted to change my blogskin but after scouring through blogskins.com for the entire morning, nothing caught my fancy at all.
*yawns*
Does anyone happen to know an expert photoshop/html fella? Please do introduce the person to me.. I know what i want as the layout but i cant create exactly what i have in mind. ARgh.
Anyway something sweet i koped from my emailpal 인호's cyworld.
세상에서 (In this world)
세상에서 내가 가장 많이 생각했던 열글자...
항상 내곁에 있어줬으면
The ten words that i think about the most in this world..
If i agree to stay besides you forever and ever
세상에서 내가 가장 많이 바랬던 아홉글자...
너와 하나될 수 있다면
The nine words that always gets faded out in this world..
If only i can become one with you together
세상 모든것이 달라진다해도 달라지지않을 여덟글자...
항상 너를 향한 마음
The eight words that will not change even if everything else in this world does..
The heart that is always in your direction
세상에서 가장 힘든 일이 왔을때 해 줄 일곱글자...
항상 널 지켜줄께
The seven words that depict what i will do when the going gets tough in this world..
I will always be protecting you forever
세상에 모든것중 가장 아름다운 여섯글자...
너의 밝은 미소
The six words that describe the most beautiful thing among everything else in this world..
The bright smile on your face
세상모든것을 가능하게 하는 다섯글자...
너를 위해서
The five words that make everything possible in this world..
For the sake of you
세상에서 나를 가장 기쁘게 하는 네글자...
너의 사랑
The four words that make me the happiest in this world..
Your love for me
세상에서 너에게만 들려줄 세글자...
사랑해
The three words that i will let only you hear in this world..
I love you
세상끝날때까지 우리에게 없을 두글자...
이별
The two words that will never occur to us til to the end of the world..
Being separated
세상에서 가장 소중한 한글자...
너
The most precious word in this world..
You
Eh the original korean version sounds really much sweeter. Sorry my translation skills just happen to suck. Lol. But its hard to get exactly that number of words so just getting the main gist across is more than satisfactory ba.
Yeah i feel much happier being at paya lebar. Yesterday only had 2 classes (3, if including eunjun) so i was pretty much slacking my way through. My very nice dongsaeng finally called me 누나 yesterday after much bugging on my part. Haha. N he was trying to convince me to go paya today in exchange for korean lessons but nah, i much prefer to nua at home on my offday. In any case, he will still teach me in the end. Lol.
Ok i have to admit, im pretty AS. But this antisocial-ness is selective. I just cant bring myself to laugh and crap with people on different wavelengths, can i?
Or rather, must i?
Of cos i do talk to the other teachers occasionally, but i rarely talk more than needed. I apologise if i exude aloofiness or dao-ness but i am generally not THAT sociable. Well, unless i deem you important enough for me to bother to bring the friendship to a higher level.
수요일, 4월 23, 2008
Cut and pasted from my own cyworld..(cos i am too lazy to pen it again lol.)
오늘은요.. 기원 오빠 생일입니다.
첫 한국 친구이고 좋은 오빠라서 만난 것 항상 반가워요.
곧 한국에 돌아가겠지요. 연락 자주 주시길 바래요~
그리고 새일 축하해요~ 건강하고 행복하세요~ ^^
첫 한국 친구이고 좋은 오빠라서 만난 것 항상 반가워요.
곧 한국에 돌아가겠지요. 연락 자주 주시길 바래요~
그리고 새일 축하해요~ 건강하고 행복하세요~ ^^
Yeah i just received confirmation that i will be going over to paya lebar from next month onwards and i am going to take over chinese lessons there too. Lol. N the wonjangnim mentioned casually that they are going to review my salary since i will be teaching 2 languages! :D
My all time favourite animal.. (but where's the bunny nose??)
일요일, 4월 20, 2008
Kyochan was slightly out of sorts today during the lesson and i kinda miss his usual goofiness. It was like he was trying so hard to look as if he was amused when it was pretty evident he was not. Hmm well he seemed to be down with flu and hopefully thats the main reason why..
Anyway i dowan to be yakking away like some moron and i know i echoed this sentiment like N times but still.. why does a day only have 24 hours instead of 36???
I have more than a dozen things on my to-do-list and 24 hours just passes in a blink. Every single day.
Went iceskating with piggy ry on friday morning cos she had off and i declare i am HOOKED onto it. I am so bent on mastering it in the shortest time possible 'kae. Maybe its due to the lack of iceskating rinks here but almost 90% of the koreans that i asked know how to iceskate and besides kiwon오빠 and eunjun, the rest are all kids!! =X
I admit, i have a deprived childhood.
Especially deprived of iceskating and piano.
In fact, sometimes i would even think of myself as a good-for-nothing.
SAD.
Hmm, some good news on the way. Hopefully i would really be transferred to paya lebar and its not just some empty talk again.. Found a whole stack of kids' korean books there on thursday and i wanna have more time to read them with eunjun. Oh he was explaining to me about this sea that parted into two in korea. (Think moses and the red sea) Eh i dunno whats the name of it but i did see it some time ago in the papers and it seems interesting. Ha. And one of the suggestions i received was to climb hallasan. [-_____-]
Well, maybe. If i really have too much free time on my hands.
목요일, 4월 17, 2008
Some kids are really so cute~
I found another boi in my class that i would love to have as my di! HAha.
And he has those smiling eyes too. Thanks to SNSD's tiffany, i seem to be on the lookout for such eyes recently. Lol. Speaking of that lass, ok i admit, i am brimming with jealousy whenever i see her. She's so incredibly pretty~ No wonder all the hosts, guests right down to the audience love her. Tsktsk.
In particular, hyunjoong likes her too.. (!!)
Ha ok not in the scandal sense.
But hyunjoong is another media darling too.. it is so obvious that the hosts always pay extra attention to him and not to the rest of ss501 every time. haha ok understandable..
Some people are just blessed with looks. Sigh.
I am still so envious of tiffany~ 부렵네요!
Anyway 5 more hours and i gonna get my electronic dictionary finally.. ^^
But my third and fourth assignments are nowhere near completion.. ahh the woes of a tesol-teacher-wannabe.. lol.
Probably going ice-skating this sunday..
Gonna master it before i leave for korea then i can indulge myself at the huge ice-skating rink in Lotte!
화요일, 4월 15, 2008
듣고 있는 노래: 박완규 [연]
Everyone seems to be in unhappy mode recently. I may not be in the best of moods, but i aint all the way down in the dumps either. So why do people around me all seem to be having the blues?
I have friends who face problems at work (and this makes up the majority) to friends with relationship problems and even someone who suddenly broached the subject of dying. I mean im no saint and the thought of non existing in this world must have occurred to everyone including myself at least once in their lifetimes. But still~
Its disheartening to see some people fighting hard to stay alive while others give up theirs so easily.
Well, i respect everyone's decision and i have nothing to say if you choose this path ultimately.
Maybe the reason why i find such thoughts ridiculous is because i find homosapiens too insignificant. I dun like my life either but its the only one that i have so i would rather hang on to it.
But honestly, i rather sit on the fence.
Its right to say you have no business in other people's lives.
I am just blabbering again..
Unhappiness reigns in reality and there is no true path to eternal happiness.
To all the friends who are experiencing a sucky life right now..
Believe in yourself.
일요일, 4월 13, 2008
My CB is driving me up the wall recently.
I swear they are boycotting ss501. Even the coupons arent saving the day!! Argh.
Anyway i have no inkling as to why i am blogging right now cos my brain is kinda devoid of any thoughts right now. Yeah my brain tends to self-declare a day off on sundays..
Oh finally finished [air city]. The ending was erm.. i would say comparable to [hong gil-dong]'s, though i admit the latter was waay more disappointing. I admit its probably conventional thinking, but after all the ups and downs in a drama, i still much prefer having a fairytale ending to sum up everything nicely.
Will it die for the PDs to let the main characters live happily ever after??
OH sorry i left out the most important word.
Live happily TOGETHER ever after?
Living happily (or so it seems) NOT TOGETHER is another issue altogether.
I may not be devoted in reality but im still a idealist in erm non-reality. Is there such a word? Lol.
My english still needs alot of brushing up.. but trust me i read at least one to two books every week. Ha. I am forced to.. cos i hafta complete all the books at readingtown or else i cant conduct a proper book discussion with the kids. But no way am i gonna touch the Classics~ ( at least i hope to avoid contact with them until the day i leave for korea).
ps/I realised i get quite a kick out of reading my old entries.. but i couldnt understand what i was thinking about for some of it..lol. Ok next time i shall diligently finish reading all of them..^^
금요일, 4월 11, 2008
Havent been blogging for awhile cos i have been occupied with trying to get rid of those annoying assignments.
I seriously loathe the thought of doing the assignments for the other 2!!
But at least i got 2 down so it makes it 50-50.
Ha.
Considering the fact that i have been awake before daybreak this past week just so as to pia it calls for a celebration to reward my commendable efforts. The incentives that keep me going?
More clip watching. LOL.
Luckily dbsk didnt appear in korea at the same time ss501 did. Or else my CB coupons wouldnt be enough to accomodate both of them. -___-
Anyway been addicted to ss501 [널 부르는 노래] recently. Its.. just.. very.. Unusual.
I mean the melody.
In fact its the strangest tune i have ever heard so far. Rofl. I cant explain it exactly in words though. Weird but extremely addictive. Heh.
What else..
Oh since my previous entries had been mostly negative jabbering i shall balance it with some nice stuff today.
(OOps [널 부르는 노래] is distracting my line of thoughts)
Err ehh oh~ met a few more cute boi students again. Ha well some gers are cute too but they generally dont leave much of an impression on me unless they are really regulars in my class. Anyway theres this cute boi from OFS called youngseok. I did kinda tell him off once before cos that day he was feeling really grumpy so he was like whining incessantly about his work. But these few times when i saw him again somehow it was like meeting an old acquaintance again. Lol. In the last lesson, he asked me if i have a boyfriend. Cute~ ^^
And another cute thing: He told me he used to have a girlfriend in grade one (he's grade 4 now i think) and he wants to find a new girlfriend but unfortunately, all the good ones in school are taken. Haha. Oh and apparently, he wants a korean-american ger cos in his own words, they are really pretty. Smart boi~ XDD
Another adorable kid is called dong geun and he's only 5 years old this year (Singapore age) but he's really cute!! He loves to rest his head on my hand when i am pointing at stuff on his worksheet. Lol. N if you hear the way he speaks (his english is actually quite fluent for his level) you will just smile unconsciously.
There were also a few other classes this week i dunno why i kept crapping during the lesson. Ha but it was fun cos the kids would try to outwit me verbally and for those in international schools, they are really good at it. And if they look cute, its an added bonus. Keke. Oops..
Nah im not as biased and superficial as it sounds. I 'play' with most of the kids as long as they are not the reserved kind. But its good to have some noisy kids in class then the quieter ones will also slowly open up as they want to join in the fun, or rather they want to help contribute to the noise. Ha.
Ok back to my last 2 assignments-- the only path to be teaching in korea next time.
아자~
일요일, 4월 06, 2008
한마디로..
I am resolved to clear the pesky TESOL assignments once and for all.
토요일, 4월 05, 2008
I dunno why i get pretty high-strung recently.
Maybe its because of the overwhining that kaywee and i have been doing these days to each other. Both of us aint feeling too good and its kinda wearing us out gradually. But nah, although i admit i have a tendency to lapse into bouts of depression here and there, i wun give myself up totally and raise the white flag. Its pathetic and i reckon i have more willpower than that.
Anyway back to why i was pissed.
The main gist is that theres a girl in my class called jihye and we are on, i would say, pretty good terms. As a friend, we get along quite well yet as a teacher, i loathe the thought of having her in my class sometimes. According to my principal, i am not the only soul who thinks that way k. Usually i let her have her way as long as she does her work faithfully for me but at the rate she is going, she is definitely overstepping her borders.
As i have mentioned previously, i detest that kind of people.
Just because i am generally nice and cordial doesnt mean you, as the student, gets to go overboard and i would just close one eye. Uh uh~
I can be harsh if i want to and i swear you wont like a single bit when you make me flare up.
Imagine a student who always comes in, sit on your chair, takes your things without permission, puts her legs on the chair and behaves as if there was no clear distinction between a teacher and a student.
The final straw today was when first she opened my bag and i had to stop her from rummaging through (another action that i detest) and when she took my sweets and took like a dozen of it. Hello~ that is like strong breath mints and it costs like $3.55 and she just popped it into her mouth like nobody's business. Ok by then i was slightly pissed but i still didnt do anything. Later, she finished her classwork and as expected, she just did it anyoldhow. And she even failed her diagnostic test which reflects what she has learned in class. So, in the end i blew my top when she came in after her test, grinning.
I wanted to wipe that smirk off her face so badly at that moment.
Anyway she got the hint and was pretty subdued after that.
The kind of students i hate most is those who cant be bothered with their own work. Well, its your life and i cant dictate what you have to do with it. Nobody in their right mind likes to study, yet everyone still has to grit their teeth and bear with it. So wake up and get it into your thick skull that studying is not optional, its MANDATORY.
Unless you were born with a silver spoon in your mouth. Then i have nothing to say.
I honestly hate saturdays cos its the busiest day of the week. Luckily, eunjun was here this morning to keep me sane. Cos i dunno if it is just pure coincidence, but all the 'trouble-makers' always appear on saturdays in full attendance.. argh.
금요일, 4월 04, 2008
Listening to: 임정희 [하늘아 바람아] on repeat
Tired~
Luckily i need not work today or else i will simply collapse into a heap like a melted snowman.
Anyway, happy belated birthday wishes to my parents (yup both of them) on the 2nd of april. And of cos, happy birthday to eunhyuk today~ ^^ no matter what DSP comes up with, the final outcome is still pretty much predetermined. So yeah, 슈주 화이팅!
Finally set up my own cyworld! *pats on the back* Lol. Ok and of cos thanks to kiwon오빠, eunjun and theresa too for their help. My first three 일촌. =) For people who might just have the slightest interest in it, its at www.cyworld.com/angelmint84 . Spent one whole morning trying to set up a decent miniroom and mini-me. Ha. With courtesy of kiwon오빠, i got a song for my cyworld from him (but i think it costs less than 1SGD per song?) called [아이처럼] by 김동률. I reckon the title pretty much fits what he thinks of me. Oh well, the lyrics are quite sweet so i shall overlook the subtle hint that i am like a child to him..
I didnt say i wasnt in the first place..
As for eunjun he helped me to get the cyworld going and we ended up leaving readingtown at close to ten pm yesterday even though my last class ended at 830. Oops. So 고마워~ And he told me that he might be staying in singapore for a longer period of time instead of going back in august as he had previously planned.
Hearing him say that was like in stark contrast to when kiwon오빠 suddenly admitted that he is going to be transferred back to bosch korea 2 weeks ago. Was talking to him on the phone yesterday til 2am and he kept replaying this melancholic im jeong hee song. Said it had been a long time since he felt that he liked a particular song that much. Well, and he was bent on not revealing the exact date he is leaving to me cos he didnt want me to start counting down the days. No matter what, he is still the first korean friend i ever had so it is inevitable i feel some pangs of sadness on his departure.
'바보,멍청이, ben dan..' 계속 오랫동안 듣고 싶은데 안 되겠죠..
앞으로 잘 살고 항상 웃으면 좋겠어.
잘 가..
제가 역시 아이처럼..
[아이처럼] - 깅동률
사랑한다 말하고 날 받아줄때엔
더 이상 나는 바랄게 없다고
자신 있게 말해놓고
자라나는 욕심에 무안해지지만
또 하루 종일 그대의 생각에
난 맘 졸여요
샘이 많아서 (아이처럼)
겁이 많아서 (바보처럼)
이렇게 나의 곁에서 웃는 게
믿어지지가 않아서
너무 좋아서 너무 벅차서
눈을 뜨면 다 사라질까봐
잠 못 들어요
웃게 해줘서 (아이처럼)
울게 해줘서 (바보처럼)
이런 설렘을 평생에
또 한번 느낄 수 있게 해줘서
믿게 해줘서 힘이 돼줘서
눈을 뜨면 처음으로 하는 말
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수요일, 4월 02, 2008
Honestly, sometimes i feel so super annoyed i want to flare up.
I am not a saint, kae.
Not complaining and being nonchalent about alot of things do not equate to satisfaction with my life.
I am so damn sick of hearing comments directed at me, 'envying' how good my life is.
I absolutely see nothing wonderful about it.
The truth is, if i kick up a fuss, people will probably dismiss it and say i am making a mountain out of a molehill. Yet when i dun, people start thinking wow, my life is perfect. That is so DUH.
I am not pointing fingers at anyone cos i dun wish to and i cant be bothered but i seriously think that people ought to be more sensitive.
To clarify matters, i dun even know where my life is heading right now. I definitely wun be staying on in my present job forever but for the moment, i dun wish to think about it.
So for the last time, stop insinuating that i have a wonderful life. You can have it if you want. Period.
Life is short and yet so many things lie beyond my control. I know very well that i am a heavy procrastinator but there are times i do try to keep to what i had said. Of cos, many times i end up not being able to and I would gladly admit to that. But again sometimes it irks me how people look at me in disbelief, with the underlying conviction that i am probably talking crap. Ok, maybe its due to my character. I shall be an angel and give them the benefit of the doubt then. But trust me, i aint too pleased with it.
I am not trying to be a fussy old maid who nags about every minute detail. But i do have my feelings intact and since i dun go around stepping haphazardly on other people's pride, i see no reason why people should step all over mine and feel no pinch about doing so. Oh well, i treat it as motivation to make myself work harder then.
The fact that i view this world in a simplistic light certainly doesnt mean i have no qualms about belittling my life. It is still my life afterall, and i dun wish to waste it.
If this post has offended anyone, i apologise but get it clear that it was you who overstepped the border in the first place.